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Dear Flyff,

It's been almost 5 years since the first day we met. 5 years since I saw you in the back of the computer shop. 5 years since my friends introduced us.

If someone would have told me then, what would become of us, I'm not sure I would have believed them. I barely remembered your name.

Then I started seeing you around the neighborhood and watching you on computer. I used to see you with guys down at the shop. But when my bestfriend started paying more attention to you, I started to wonder. Maybe you were different.

We hung out a few times. The more I got to know you, the more I liked you. And as life would have it, when I finally got really interested in you, when I was finally ready to get serious, you left me. And that hacking incident was the worst.

I was crushed. I was hurt. I think I even cried.

Then I wanted you more than ever. So I sat down. I hustled. I worked on my game. Killing. Hunting. Piercing. Upgrading. I killed monsters. I did top-ups.I studied you. I began to fall in love and you noticed.

At the time, I wasn't sure exactly what was going on. But now I know. LadyFlorence was teaching me how to love you, how to listen to you, how to understand you, how to respect you and how to appreciate you.

Since then, you've become much more than just a past time to me. You've become more than just a character. More than just an armor. More than just a pair of weapons. More than just a game.

In some respects, you've become my life. My passion. My motivation. My inspiration.

You've my biggest fan and my harshest critic. You're my dearest friend and my strongest ally. You're my most challenging teacher and my most endearing student. You're my ultimate guildmate and my toughest competitor. You're my reason why I traveled Manila.

So much has changed since the first day we met, and to a large degree, I have you to thank. So if you haven't heard me say it before, let me say it now for the world to hear. Thank you. Thank you, Flyff.
Thank you for everything.

Thank you for all the players who came before me. Thank you for all the players who went into battle with me. Thank you for the crowns and the medal. Thank you for the Dragon Colliseum Guild War and the Special Events. Thank you for the last hits, the victories and the defeats. Thank you for making me earn my keep. Thank you for the prizes. Thank you for AllStarOutCast, TooYoungToFighT and UnitedAlliance. Thank you for the "BladeInShiningArmor" and the nickname.
Thank you for the 67845 PVP damage. Thank you for the Heroes' Clash. Thank you for the will and the determination, the heart and the soul, the pride and the courage. Thank you for the competitive spirits and the competition to challenge it. Thank you for the failures and the setbacks, the blessings and the compliments. Thank you for the DCGW obstacles. Thank you for
MenThoz, Jayup12 and •bHaLoTsKii•. Thank you for forgiving me. Thank you for the game masters, the forum moderators, and the customer support team. Thank you for egypt, nAnYeR, 2Much2HandLe, DARKNESS, jury, SAiNT11, bumblebee0529, Am3thyst, rebelkai, LordGabe, ZoLdycK, VanDiTs, fOr÷EveR÷YounG and babyBEN999666. Thank you for the WrathOnFire and the BonFireRoyalty, the LOYALISTA and the CERTIFIED. Thank you for RenegadesX, KingsAscension, Vikingz and Elites. Thank you for the LionHeart .
Thank you for the believers and the doubters. Thank you for DarthVader´ and ShufflePath.
Thank you for the MVP award and the experience. Thank you for teaching me the game behind, beneath, within, above and around.. the game game. Thank you for every fan who has ever called my name, put their hands together for me and my teammates, vended a cheer message or flooded the enemy during a game. Thank you for everything you've given me.
Thank you for the weapons and the armor sets, and last but not least, thank you for LadyFlorence.

I know I'm not the only one who loves you. I know you have loved many before me and will love many after me. But, I also know what we had was unique. It was special. So as our relationship changes yet again, as all relationships do, one thing is for sure.

Though I sold my possession for a hundred and fifthy thousand, it wasn't enough to uncover all the memories we had.

I love you, Flyff. I love everything about you and I always will. My playing days in the Shade are definitely over, but our relationship will never end.

Much Love and Respect,

Rhenz

Ambush.. Gangbang.. Hutaena..

Kakatapos lang ng finals at masaya ang araw ko. Marami akong kasama. Nag-enjoy kami lahat. Kumain. Uminom. Nagkwentuhan. Noong bago kami pumunta sa Trinoma ay marami talaga kami, pero sa inuman ay konti lamang ang natira. Ako, sina Recee, Ronar, Cierine, Pau, Homer, Angelo, Christian, Leo, Alec at Ayban. Uwian na, at inihatid ko si Cierine sa bahay nila.

Masaya na ang gabi ko. Kumpleto. At nag-darasal na regular ako next sem. Nagtetext ako nuon at naglalakad. Mula sa Lacson St. ay tumawid ako. Naglalakad ako sa España, at pagdating ko sa madilim na overpass ay biglang. Boom! Isang matigas na bagay ang tumama sa likod ko. Mayroong malaking lalaking humawak sa likod ko at 5 ibang mukha ang sumuntok sa akin sa katawan. Puro sa tiyan, at sa ulo. Hindi naman lahat ay nakibugbog. Ewan ko, paano ko malalaman kung nakayuko ako. Sa lakas ng mga suntok nila ay nabitawan ko ang cellphone na hawak ko. Bumagsak ito, nakalas. Pinulot ito ng isa sa kanila at habang wala na kong lakas para tumayo ay nagtakbuhan na sila. Nabilang ko, 8. Ang isa ay nadala pa ang bag ko ngunit nahawakan ko rin at binitawan niya matapos kong masuntok ng isa. Marahil ay napagtripan lang ako, wala silang balak kumuha ng kahit na ano. Malas lang dahil nabitawan ko ang cellphone ko.

Naglalakad ako pauwi ng pinagtitinginan ng mga tao. Sira ang polo. Sabog ang buhok. At namumula sa bugbog. Hindi ko alam ang magiging reaksyon ko. Nainis. Naawa sa sarili. Natakot. Sa mga oras na ito, namamaga ang ulo ko. Nananakit ang kanang kamay. At bugbog ang aking katawan. Lilinawin ko lang, uminom ako pero hindi ako lasing ng mga oras na yun.

Rhenz, All Alone

"Rhenz, gising na. May pasok pa tayo mamaya", said Aira. I spent the night in her room because of fun chats and heavy rain yesterday. She gave me a cup of coffee and I immeadiately left after drinking it. Its 5:30am in the morning and I told Hesper that I'll be late in school. I still want to rest a bit. My class starts at 8:00am and I decided to rest after arriving at my own apartment. I woke up at exactly 8:30am and I recieved messages from my friends that I'm late again, I'm finally prepared leaving by 9:00am just to recieved another message telling me that the classes are suspended. Yes the rain outside was very strong. Still sleepy, I rested again telling myself that I will let the rain passed before I leave the apartment to come home at Cavite. Around 1:30pm when I get up to find myself stranded in my apartment. I checked my phone to read some text messages, "Rhenz, di na kami makakauwi diyan, wala kaming masakyan, ikaw muna bahala diyan ah, itaas mo yung mga gamit pag pinasok yung bahay ng tubig". I'm trying to reply but its always failed, I began to wonder why when suddenly, "tsk!", the electricity went off. "Shit! I'm dead". The rain was still falling. The light was fading. I began to panic.

All I could see, All I could hear, All I could feel was "darkness". I'm not prepared for this. I don't have foods and candles. I'm hungry. I'm out of energy. Brownout. Flood. Broken network. Alone. I'm starting to lose hope. I don't know what to do. I wonder what the others are doing. I'm scared. So I prayed, asking for contrition and help. With that, I realize that I can do something. I looked for cottonbuds, salt and oil. "I can make it". I was successful in making an unordinary candle. Each moment passed, I will look in the window even though I know nothing will happen. I just pray and pray and pray. No eating. And I finally fell asleep.

Early morning, I left. Riding 2 pedi. 3 trains. 2 jeeps. 1 bus and a tricycle to come back home to my family and to hug them tightly.

Lesson learned: A selfish person is regarded as scum. But a person who can't help himself/herslef is worse than a scum.

Your My Savior.. I'm Your Knight In Shining Armor

It was the 14th day of September, a birthday of 1 of my highschool friends, Joan. All of my band members are invited (Pink) to celebrate the birthday of our beloved friend. I, always number 1 in tardiness, am the last person to arrived there. After some greetings with the others, this girl caught my attention, those long straight hair I used to play, her boyish but cute voice I always used to hear in the phone and.. and those lips I.. nothing.. We've been texting again lately and she told me new things about her, but I didn't expect her to come on Joan's birthday.

I sat on the vacant sit beside her, she still hasn't changed. I feel like we're back in my 4th year highschool days. We talked, we laughed, we had some fun like we have our own world during the celebration until we end up reminiscing all the memories we had. I can't deny the fact that the feelings are still there, the spark, the butterflies, this feeling.. something very unique, a unique feeling with my first true love, suddenly she opened up, she told me how much she regret what happened to the past, how I came to her mind instantly when she's thinking of many things, then follows these words that explodes my everything. "Rhenz, gusto kong ibalik yung dati. Sising sisi ako. Gusto ko yung dati. Gusto ko pa. Mahal pa rin kita e". Those words brought me to the happiness of the nth level. It seems that I don't care how she hurted me in the past anymore.

I smiled, and answer her without second thought, "Oo. Ibabalik natin". I am so happy that day like all my prayers in the past was answered after all the patience. After the celebration, I felt like I'm not going home yet. We went to the playground close to their home, sat in the grass and talked. It seems that I don't want the time to passed. I hugged her so tight that if it is possible, I almost break her bones."This time I won't let you go again, I won't do anything that will make you mad at me. I won't make any mistakes of loving you" I said. "This time I'll be sweeter" Sherine hitted me back, and kissed me. Finally, back in the 3 months when she was still mine, it came true, those lips I long to kiss, This girl I want to grow old with. All the memories seems to flashback, the first meeting, the quarrel, the sad times, the confession, the trials, the scent of white musk that she sprays in my hanky so that I won't miss her, the moment in the rain, the hug behind the back, the song tattooed on my mind, the sweetest poem on earth that I made, the separation, the pain. After that, we both closed our eyes, promising each other that we will be inlove for all time.

As I opened my eyes, I noticed that I'm in bed. Its already 10AM in the morning and we have a class later. Shit. What's with that scene? The unstoppable tears are dropping from my eyes without my knowing. Maybe a nightmare, maybe the sweetest dream.

Performance Level

One Sunday, I'm busy studying Mechanics because a new lesson seems to be very difficult. The tv was turned on that time but I'm just ignoring the program. After solving 2-3 problems, a song caught my attention. It was ASAP 09 that time and I'm really not interested watching it but this time, something or someone gives me the interest to watch. A song that is very annoying in my ears when I was still a kid made me realize how beautiful the song is when I heard it. It is rare for me to share things like this but I believe, this may rock you on!



As expected from the Grand Champion of Search For A Star.

Preliminary Examination sa EE 201

It's already prelims, and I must be ready for every subject in my major. Letting my guard down will cause me problems in the future. At the very moment I took the test in Differential Equations, I already studied in the library for my test in Electrical Circuits. I got very low scores from my previous 2 quizzes so I need to get a high score for this one. After 2 hours of studying, I finally went home and studied again. My brother told me to concentrate on Maxwell and Nodal because it is very hard If I don't know how to solve problems with that. I studied until 1:00AM and finally go to bed. The next morning, my dorm mate asked me who my professor is, I answered him, "Sir Go." He told me that Sir Go isn't his professor in EE 201 when he was still studying but he gave me a very useful advice. "Rhenz, R equivalent is very important. Practice Delta - Wye." With that, I already went to school and studied at the library for the prelims in EE.

A problem in the book is consist of a very hard circuit with complicated resistors. I tried to solve it and think for myself, "If I could solve this complicated one, I may pass his test." I finally solved it in 30 minutes and I felt that I'm already ready for the test.

3:00PM, It's already time to take the test. I'm looking for Christian in the classroom but it seems he isn't there to give me advices during his test. The bell rang. Each students from 3EEA was guided to the staircase so no leakage will be done. Now, its our turn.

Number 1, it seems to be the easy part of the test. I answered it in 10 minutes because its just an arrangement of equation in the KCL and KVL. Number 2-4, Maxwell and Nodal, its good to know that I had practice with this. It took me 1 hour to answer this three questions. Number 5, a circuit that seems very familiar. Right! This is the circuit I solved when I was in the library. I answered it within 15 minutes and finally, the last question. This seems to be a bonus question so few of us will fail the test. I stared to it for about 10 minutes. 10 minutes have passed and still I don't know how to solve it. Finally, I, being a bad student, wrote this on my paper. "Ayan, time na." when there is still several minutes left so it may look that I'm smart.:) After the test, I smilingly walk outside the room thinking if it is because of my luck, or my hardwork.

After 1 week, the papers we're returned. Few only answered the bonus question and my result?
99/100.^^

Change

it's been a long time since i visited this blog. maybe because of hectic sched and addiction to other things. well, that "long time" caused me to change a far better now. it's my third year now in college and right now, i want a different life. a completely new different life from the past.

well, i miss everyone. especially my old classmates in 1-9 and 2-10. this is now a completely different life that i will face. but since mark is with me, i guess it's not that uneasy.

with this short post, i just want every reader to reminisce the moments that we enjoyed in the past two years. now i have a new lease in life. goodluck guys, goodluck rhenz.

Dear ---,

Dear ---,

alam mo ba? hindi normal para sakin ang magpost ng ganito sa blog ko? pero hindi ko alam. bakit pilit mo akong binigyan ng dahilan para ipost ito. ayokong nakikialam ng buhay ng ibang tao, ng sa ganon ay wala ring makikialam ng sa akin. hindo ko alam kung anong "cool" bakit hindi mo maalis ang masamang habbit na ito sa buhay mo. alam mo na naman na gusto ko na nang tahimik na buhay. bakit ganyan ka?

hindi ko ipinost ang blog na ito para siraan ka o ano, sa katanuyan niyan, wala akong pakialam kung mababasa mo ito o hindi. ang sakin lang, masama ang loob ko. at isa ito sa mga paraan para mabawasan ang "muhi" na nararamdaman ko para sa'yo. sa totoo lang, tapatan na. hindi ka dapat nakikialam sa kung ano mang relasyon meron kami ni, alam mo na. bakit? hindi ba halata? wala kang alam sa pag-handle ng isang relasyon at wala ka ring alam sa kung ano man ang mga nararamdaman ng mga tao na may karanasan dito. oo, maaari kang magpayo at makinig, pero hanggang dun ka na lang. dahil sa ibang lugar napupunta ang pakikialam mo sa buhay ng ibang tao na minsan, nagdudulot ng masama.

masama ako, oo? minsan? hindi? alam ko may mga pagkakataong nagiging masama ako. yan ang tingin sa akin ng mga nakararaming tao. pero dahil mas marami nga naman ang hindi ko kakilala, masama nga ba ako? alam ko nasa listahan ako ng mga taong kinasasamaan mo, pero sasabihin ko sa'yo, sa mga chismis na sinasabi mo tunkol sa akin(o samin), sa palagay mo sinong nagmumukhang masama sa mata ng kausap mo? kami? o ikaw? sa ginagawa mo, galit ako sa'yo. galit na galit ako. alam ng marami na mahaba ang pasensiya ko, kahit pikon ako. marunong akong magpatawad, pero hindi ko yan mapapangako pag-dating sa'yo.

sasabihin ko lang, kaya kong tumayo sa sarili kong mga paa. at makakagraduate ako sa UST kahit walang tulong ng ibang tao. ang "kapal" ng mukha mo(sobrang kapal) para palabasing nanggagamit ako ng tao. kahit sa mga magulang ko ayoko nang iasa ang mga problema ko, kahit kanino hindi na ako nagsasabi, maliban na lamang sa blog na ito, tapos ipapamukha mo na nanggagamit ako ng tao para makaraos sa mga problema ko. kung ikaw nga, kapag may problema ka. doon mo lang ako nilalapitan (bukod sa may sisiraan kang tao sakin), pero hindi ka nakarinig ng kahit na anong "rejection" mula sakin. isa pa ayokong manumbat, pero kung iyon ang tingin mo sakin. uunahan na kita. bago ako maging ganon, siguro ikaw muna.

hindi ko naman pwedeng basta na lang patulan ka, una sa kadahilanang babae ka, at hindi tayo magkaantas sa lahat ng kategoriya. mabasa mo man ito o hindi. wala akong pakialam. naglabas lang ako ng nararamdaman kong "muhi" sa pinakamabuting paraan. iyon lamang.

PS: kung magpapatuloy kang ganyan, hindi na ako magtataka kung isang araw na lang, magigising kang wala ka nang kaibigan. so long.

The Rain Falls, So Do My Tears

4:25 ng umaga, isang araw ng Miyerkules ay nagising na naman ako mula sa isang malalim na panaginip. Isang umaga na naman ang haharapin ko. Tinatamad akong pumasok, dahil bakasyon naman talaga ng isang regular na estudyante pero dahil sa kapabayaan ko sa pag-aaral, isa ako sa maraming minalas na papasok kahit summer. Pagkatapos mag-ayos at makaalis ng bahay, nakaramdam ako ng gutom. "Hindi nga pala ako kumain ng almusal".

Sa aking pagpasok sa UST, nag-uumpisa na pala ang klase. Ang aking mga kasama ay nagsimula ng gumawa ng experiment para sa Physics, at ng kukunin ko na ang libro sa aking bag, napansin kong hindi ko dala ang ilbro ko sa Computer Lab. Anong gagawin ko? Pano to? May Machine Problem kami mamaya.
Tinanong ko ang mmga kaibigan ko sa loob ng silid aralan na sina Ronar, KC, Christian at Gab. Sabi nila, ako ang bahala sa desisyon ko kung anong gagawin ko. Posibleng nasa bahay ang Lab Manual at naiwan ko lamang.

Natapos ang Physics Lab sa ganap na 9:00am. Hindi na muna ako papasok ng Physics at kukunin ko ang Lab Manual sa Cavite kahit gaano pa kalayo. Naku, bakit kasi nawalan ako ng cellphone at hindi ko matatanong ang mga tao sa bahay kung nandun nga. Ganap na 11:00am nang makarating ako sa bahay. Nakarating ako sa bahay ng hindi pa rin nakakakain, dumiretso agad sa kwarto. At nakita kong wala pala doon ang librong hinahanap ko. Muli, sa sugal na ginawa ko, ako ang natalo. Bakit nga ba ang malas lagi ng sitwasyon ko. Ganito pala ang nagiisa, mahirap pala talaga. Naiinggit naman ako kay Nobita. May Shizuka na, may Doraemon pa.

Kailangan kong bumalik agad ng UST para hanapin muli ang nawawala kong libro, magbabakasakaling makakakuha ako ng MP at nakuha lamang ng kaklase ko ang librong hinahanap ko. 12:30pm, habang nasa bus ako papuntang UST, nagsimulang pumatak ang malakas na ulan. Sobrang traffic ang naganap at alam kong hindi na ako aabot sa klase ko ng 1:00pm. Ang malas naman talaga, bakit ganito? 2:00pm na nang ang jeep na sinasakyan ko papuntang España ay lumiko papuntang P. Noval dahil sa sobrang baha. Bumaba ako dahil gusto ko ng lakarin hanggang España pero hindi ko pala kaya. Sinubukan kong maglakad at may nakita akong isang bus ng SM Fairview na kayang dumaan sa malaking baha, ngunit sa Dapitan dadaan. Oo sumugal uli ako, kung saan ako maaaring dalhin ng bus na iyon ay bahala na, 2:30 sa gitna ng Dapitan ay mataas rin ang baha. Maraming ng estudyanteng nagnanasang umuwi ngunit hindi nila magawa. Lumiko na ang bus papuntang Lacson at nakakita ako ng pagkakataon para makababa dahil hindi ganoon kalalim ang baha. Sa aking pagtayo sa bus, agad agad itong lumiko ng Don Quixote at hindi ako nakababa, tumuloy na ang sinasakyan ko hanggang pinilit kong makababa ng Vicente Cruz. Doon, para makapunta ng España ay nilusong ko na ang baha. Bakit nga ba? Anong hinahanap ko sa UST at bakit pinipilit kong makarating kahit wala nang klase? Pinasukan ng tubig ang aking sapatos kaya't wala na akong magagawa kundi lakarin na rin ang baha. Bumili ako ng tsinelas sa overpass at bababa ako ng UST. Saktong 3:30pm pa lang naman. Nakarating ako doon, malakas ang ulan at basang basa ako. Naghihintay na baka makita ko sila. Tumaga ang orasan sa 5:30pm, wala akong inabutan. At habang naglalakad ako pauwi ay naramdaman ko ang pagpatak ng luha sa aking mata.

Mag-isa akong natulog sa apartment ko.

Kinabukasan, nakita ko ang libro sa mesa ng aking pwesto sa Computer Lab.

More About The Author

¤Rhenz-(Rhenz)

¤(noun)a guy wanted for stealing hearts..=p
¤(noun)means 99% salabahe..
¤(noun)known as the prince of princes..
¤(adj)a word to describe a left-handed bastard..

ako mgulong tao...

pbaGo bago uNg ugali coH eH....
bsta pG ngtaNonG kayo tUnGkOl xkEn sa 1 anDrEaN,
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cnong rHenz?

Ung mtalinOnG sigAnG pLayboY n maYaBanG..?

e1 ko xa kniLa peRo mDaLas uN aNg nRi2niG k0 sA kniLa

i cAmE froM LaguNa's Race

ai0n mEdYo mkuLit me

mjO emO..
Mhilig kUmaNta tZka mAglar0 nG baSkeTboL...

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mDaLaz mg_CoMpuTeR
Tp0s mhiLiG ak0ng kmaiN nG choCol8

peRo di 2mataBa

aKo unG tiPo nG ta0 na mHiRaP ng
KliMutaN pg dUmatiNg nA sa BuhAy nyO

mjO Loko

MhiLig xa GuiTaR

pwDeng BasS, RhyThM at LeaD

mHiLig sUmayaw

mDalas nkataMbaY kNg saan2

mkUlit per0 mHiliG manglibrE
mHiLig mgBza nG BiBle...
hehe.. MhiLig 2maWa
tp0z my pAtiEnZe-TeMpeRanCe
tZka sP0rtz AdDicT

nginG mhiLig aq sA rabbiT dhiL sa knya..

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