Rhenz, All Alone

"Rhenz, gising na. May pasok pa tayo mamaya", said Aira. I spent the night in her room because of fun chats and heavy rain yesterday. She gave me a cup of coffee and I immeadiately left after drinking it. Its 5:30am in the morning and I told Hesper that I'll be late in school. I still want to rest a bit. My class starts at 8:00am and I decided to rest after arriving at my own apartment. I woke up at exactly 8:30am and I recieved messages from my friends that I'm late again, I'm finally prepared leaving by 9:00am just to recieved another message telling me that the classes are suspended. Yes the rain outside was very strong. Still sleepy, I rested again telling myself that I will let the rain passed before I leave the apartment to come home at Cavite. Around 1:30pm when I get up to find myself stranded in my apartment. I checked my phone to read some text messages, "Rhenz, di na kami makakauwi diyan, wala kaming masakyan, ikaw muna bahala diyan ah, itaas mo yung mga gamit pag pinasok yung bahay ng tubig". I'm trying to reply but its always failed, I began to wonder why when suddenly, "tsk!", the electricity went off. "Shit! I'm dead". The rain was still falling. The light was fading. I began to panic.

All I could see, All I could hear, All I could feel was "darkness". I'm not prepared for this. I don't have foods and candles. I'm hungry. I'm out of energy. Brownout. Flood. Broken network. Alone. I'm starting to lose hope. I don't know what to do. I wonder what the others are doing. I'm scared. So I prayed, asking for contrition and help. With that, I realize that I can do something. I looked for cottonbuds, salt and oil. "I can make it". I was successful in making an unordinary candle. Each moment passed, I will look in the window even though I know nothing will happen. I just pray and pray and pray. No eating. And I finally fell asleep.

Early morning, I left. Riding 2 pedi. 3 trains. 2 jeeps. 1 bus and a tricycle to come back home to my family and to hug them tightly.

Lesson learned: A selfish person is regarded as scum. But a person who can't help himself/herslef is worse than a scum.

Your My Savior.. I'm Your Knight In Shining Armor

It was the 14th day of September, a birthday of 1 of my highschool friends, Joan. All of my band members are invited (Pink) to celebrate the birthday of our beloved friend. I, always number 1 in tardiness, am the last person to arrived there. After some greetings with the others, this girl caught my attention, those long straight hair I used to play, her boyish but cute voice I always used to hear in the phone and.. and those lips I.. nothing.. We've been texting again lately and she told me new things about her, but I didn't expect her to come on Joan's birthday.

I sat on the vacant sit beside her, she still hasn't changed. I feel like we're back in my 4th year highschool days. We talked, we laughed, we had some fun like we have our own world during the celebration until we end up reminiscing all the memories we had. I can't deny the fact that the feelings are still there, the spark, the butterflies, this feeling.. something very unique, a unique feeling with my first true love, suddenly she opened up, she told me how much she regret what happened to the past, how I came to her mind instantly when she's thinking of many things, then follows these words that explodes my everything. "Rhenz, gusto kong ibalik yung dati. Sising sisi ako. Gusto ko yung dati. Gusto ko pa. Mahal pa rin kita e". Those words brought me to the happiness of the nth level. It seems that I don't care how she hurted me in the past anymore.

I smiled, and answer her without second thought, "Oo. Ibabalik natin". I am so happy that day like all my prayers in the past was answered after all the patience. After the celebration, I felt like I'm not going home yet. We went to the playground close to their home, sat in the grass and talked. It seems that I don't want the time to passed. I hugged her so tight that if it is possible, I almost break her bones."This time I won't let you go again, I won't do anything that will make you mad at me. I won't make any mistakes of loving you" I said. "This time I'll be sweeter" Sherine hitted me back, and kissed me. Finally, back in the 3 months when she was still mine, it came true, those lips I long to kiss, This girl I want to grow old with. All the memories seems to flashback, the first meeting, the quarrel, the sad times, the confession, the trials, the scent of white musk that she sprays in my hanky so that I won't miss her, the moment in the rain, the hug behind the back, the song tattooed on my mind, the sweetest poem on earth that I made, the separation, the pain. After that, we both closed our eyes, promising each other that we will be inlove for all time.

As I opened my eyes, I noticed that I'm in bed. Its already 10AM in the morning and we have a class later. Shit. What's with that scene? The unstoppable tears are dropping from my eyes without my knowing. Maybe a nightmare, maybe the sweetest dream.